Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Update.....

Salam semua...

Lamanya tak menulis. Actually, i've been away for quite sometime. 2 weeks to be exact. My husband sent me back to my hometown, ipoh. Kasihan my husband, terpaksa jadi 'orang bujang' sekejap, ke.... sebenarnya dia seronok???? ;p, nak kena tanya ni.... Tapi, sebelum meninggalkan, semua sudah disediakan. Sampai sakit2 pinggang, meng'iron' 7 pasang baju kerja abang dalam satu malam, kemas dua beg berbeza, siapkan 10 kilo sambal pecal.... letih betul...
My sis's wedding was on 12 and 13 of dec. SIBUKNYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tuhan sahaja yang tahu. There's a lot of things to be settled, to be planned, to be estimate etc. My parent insisted, not to use the catering service, so kami masak sendiri, sama macam my wedding dulu. Actually, kami adik beradik dah pakat2, nak pujuk mama and abah, tak perlu la masak sendiri, just ambil katering. Yes, masak sendiri lebih menjimatkan, tapi penatnya... rasa macam nak cabut kaki and gantung kat dinding je.
This is the second wedding ceremony for my family. We learnt a lot from the first one, which is my wed. Ada banyak benda yang terkilan rasa di hati. A lot of thing that i wish i've done differently. Can you just imagine, ptg lepas Asar nak nikah, 2 pm im still with baju buruk, tengah mengacau lauk??? Bising je mak andam.... Andai boleh diputar waktu.... well, enough of that, bak kata my husband, "yang sudah tu sudah, yang penting semua berjalan lancar, kita dah selamat...." Tht's why, for my sis wedding, i dont want the same thing that happenned to me, happen to her. We've tried our best, to make sure that everything run smoothly. Yes, kita merancang, Tuahn menentukan, there are flaws, here and there, but nobdy's perfect right. Alhamdulillah.... semua berjalan lancar. I'll upload pics later, penat masih beluh hilang lagi ni.... adoiiiiiii.......................................................................

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

A trip...

Salam semua....
Few weeks back, we took two days off, plus saturday and sunday for a weekend getaway to sabah :)

Actually, we've been planning this trip since may, when we returned from langkawi. I guess, its just our habit, to plan another trip, as soon as we got off from the current one. Talking bout future plan, we've already planned our next trip, dari inside plane, otw balik sepang :) but still, we haven't decided, between bandung or vietnam... Enough with that, some snippet bout our recent trip.
12th Nov~khamis


boarded air asia (now everyone can fly) at 3.20, we headed straight to tawau. one of my sil is currently staying in lahad datu, so she n her family was our tourist guide. Arrived tawau airport at around 5.30 pm, already dah gelap. i thought it was going to rain, hehehe terlupa pulak sana malam awal.
Had our dinner at a kelantanese restaurant (memang org bisness, they're everywhere). then, check-in di bandar tawau.



dinner

13th Nov~ jumaat
Ehem... subuh sini masuk awal ye... so, kalau2 rasa jam tu alarm still alarm semenanjung, sila la tukar ye... else, subuh gajah la jawabnya ;p
Our first destination was pasar gantung, located di bandar tawau. bought a lot souviners there. then, shopping bahan kering di pasar tawau. murah gilerrr... siap dapat banyak free stuff lagi. tapi, all these ikan kering, udang kering, bilis etc, caused my sil's car, berbau... sepanjang hari....

semuanya murah2 di sana
we then went straight to sampoerna, just an hour++ drive from bandar tawau.
istimewa skali, otw ke sampoerna, kami singgah kedai tepi jalan... ada orang teringin......

DURIAN!!


sempat jugak kami bergambar dgn bangla jual durian ni hehehehe...

decided to try new experience, we decided to stay for a night di chalet called 'floating' by locals. sangat istimewa, the chalets was build, few feet above the sea level. something my sil warned: "atas air ni, jangan ganas2, takut berkocak air laut" ;p and i answered, "tell it to ur brother" ;p ;p ;p





sekitar rumah penginapan 'floating'







gambar jalan2. tak banyak sebab jalannya jauh, i slept allllllll the way.......


sini ada sikit pics taken there.



antar souviners yang berjaya dirembat di sana. siap 2x tekan atm, sbb x cukup duit beli mutiara. geleng kepala je my husband. jangan risau bang... duit i kan... ;p

Thursday, November 5, 2009

An Update...

Salam semua...

Actually, i have a lot on my mind... few things happenned but still belum ada kesempatan untuk update. Last week, i attended my mother's farewell & jamuan akhir tahun. Macam tak percaya, my mum is already 56 years (which makes me feel older too). So 20th Oct was my mum's last day, as a teacher, after serving for more than 30 years. The ceremony went well, few tears here and there. It was overwhelming, since everyone including my future brother in law ada. Enjoy some pic.


All the six of us, one is not around, ada final paper di shah alam









Us with mama n abah

i wanted to upload more, tapi belum sempat transfer dalam komputer. Later ok. hmmm... gambar my husband pun takde ni...



Im a bit excited, waiting for this coming weekend. I have to attend a one-day course at concorde shah alam. A protocol course, for isteri2 gov officer. The best part was, when i told my husband bout it, he suddenly suggested that we stay there for the weekend instead ;p aduh bestnya....



So we already booked bilik and ...







Our plan would be...







Friday 6th Nov



- check-in after jumaat prayer



-ptg- rehat2 kejap



-malam - dinner and midnight show @ the curve (lama betul tak tengok midnight...)



- then balik hotel la apa lagi ;p







Saturday 7th Nov



- morning until 4 pm - i'll be attending the course while my husband akan seeeeebbbukkk sangat main golf.



- petang- movie lagi....



- malam - dinner







Sunday 8th Nov



- Check-out



- IKEA :)







Frankly speaking, this is enough for me, a perfect weekend getaway. Di waktu orang lain sibuk berjalan2 merata2, langkawi, medan etc, kitorg dapat jalan2 luar rumah jadi la.... tak sabarnya...

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Satu kisah HOT...

Salam semua...

Macam selalu, today I started my car at 6.45 am, switch on the aircond, then the radio. I suka tukar2 radio station, cari yang mana ada cerita menarik pagi2. I tuned into Hot FM. Macam yang semua orang tahu, Hot Fm ada satu segmen called Panggilan Hangit. And tentu for those who listened morning tadi, tentu ingat panggilan hangit pagi tadi.

It was a request from a husband, to her wife; issue: the husband nak berpoligami. Actually, this was last week punya panggilan hangit, before faizal sempat explain to the wife, she hung up. He tried calling back, but the wife refused to pick up, until faizal call the husband, suruh dia pujuk his wife. So today, faizal replay the last week conversation, then he gave her another call, for further comment.

Do you know why she hung up in the first place?, its because, it was actually not a JOKE punya PANGGILAN HANGIT, its for real. The husband memang ada intention untuk berpoligami.
By listening to the replay of last week conversation, listening to the wife punya suara, rasa sedih sangat, I even cried (hmmm… I memang emosional cerita2 mcm ni). Suaranya slow, bergetar and banyak kali she paused during the conversation, nak mengawal emosinya agaknya. She was upset, for few reasons. 1st- the husband tak jelaskan benar2 kenapa he was having another relationship with another women. 2nd – as a courtesy, the wife requested that the husband buat satu perjumpaan, mereka bertiga, tiga pasang mata bertemu untuk berbincang, tapi suaminya tak buat. She said, “ Kalau caranya betul, mungkin saya boleh terima kenyataan ini, tapi saya tak kenal siapa perempuan tu, macam mana saya nak berkongsi hidup dengannya. Macam mana nasib saya dan anak2 saya? Kebajikan kami?” (and this moment, memang airmataku laju je mencurah2. 3rd – nothing can be said, to express how she felt, with the fact that her husband is in love with another women.

So, pagi tadi, ada banyak sangat people yang call, yang sms, masing2 meluahkan pandangan masing2. Actually, I tried too, but the line was busy. What I was planning to say is…

“ Bagaimana seorang lelaki yang sungguh gentlemen, yang datang berjumpa keluarga kita, asking for permission to marry us, yang menyambut tangan tok kadi, beserta akad serta sumpahnya untuk menjaga, menyayangi kita, yang mencium ubun2 kepala saat membatalkan air sembahyang, yang bertahun2 telah kita sama2 harungi susah dan senang, berkongsi hidup, masalah dan cerita, how can dia anggap benda ini sesuatu yang tidak serius, boleh diperlekehkan, on air pulak tu”… Sampai hati dia

Actually, itu yang buat saya sedih. Don’t get me wrong, its not that im facing the same prob, maklumlah, lain macam je komen kan… hehehe I sekadar menjiwai keperitan yang dilalui oleh wanita tersebut (im actually good at that)

The DJ managed to talk to the husband, on air pagi tadi. And he said, akan teruskan rancangannya. And I can still remember the last sentence from the husband, “ Whatever it is, I takkan tinggalkan awak, I akan jaga kebajikan awak. And sayang, I love you”.

Hmmmm ye lah tu……. Sayang ke macam tu? Sampai hati.

Right after that, faizal putarkan lagu Ungu, Demi Waktu. Timing memang baaaeeeekkkk punya. I did cry, again. Lirik lagunya, if its being heard carefully, memang menusuk kalbu and if im that wife, memang kena sangat lagu ni. I don’t think im that strong, Tuhan Maha Mengetahui. Hopefully, ini cerita yang I akan dengar sahaja, never would I like to experience it myself.. I hope my husband is not reading this, I know he don’t, cause if he did....

"Kan i dah kata, stop reading all these novels, no more carekarama, no more drama, no more Nur Kasih, Semua ni merosakkan fikiran you, pikir yang bukan2. After this, only cerita perang and discovery channel je for you"

Ye... i know my husband, itula dialog yang bakal suamiku utarakan....

So friends... ada komen?

Sunday, October 25, 2009

S.E.P.I

Salam semua...

Currently, its 11pm, and im lying on my bed, trying my best to keep awake while waiting for the return of my husband. Im watching The Proposal, kinda intresting, hopefully i tak tertidur ;p
Im so overwhelmed by all the comments left by my friends, regarding my last post. Thanks a lot, at least, i know, there are people out there, cares for me. And to wanie, tak sangka you went through the same experience. You are lucky, dah ada damia.
Frankly, masa2 sendirian macam ni la terasa sangat S.E.P.I, when my husband is not around. Sejujurnya, im so lucky to have him by my side know... i know, everyone will say the same bout their husband. But seriously, im lucky sebab dikurniakan dengan seorang lelaki yang dapat megisi setiap masa2 kami berdua sepenuhnya, buat segalanya terisi. Seorang lelaki yang ada great sense of humor, suka mengusik, pandai menceriakan suasana, knows everything that should be said, should be done. Setiap masa bersamanya, rasa tak kosong, tak sunyi, ceria. Kadang2, rasa macam manis baru2 berkawin. Actually, until now, i masih teruja everytime dapat sms dari -My Love-, masih tersenyum everytime received call from -My Love- walaupun as simple as, "Dah sampai rumah" or "Malam you masak apa?" Walaupun, kadang2 ada masanya, bila anginnya 'lain macam', Tuhan je yang tahu. Kalau ada orang kata orang lelaki tak pandai membebel, well... think again, my husband memang ada kepakaran dalam bidang itu.
It has been 2 years++ we got married, kami masih berdua. Sabarnya la suamiku ini... Sejujurnya, deep inside my heart, i pity my husband, Kesian abang... I know he wants zuriat, just as bad as i am. Sabarnya abang menenangkan isterinya yang asyik menangis setiap kali period... Sabarnya abang everytime calm je bila terima berita kawan2 yang baru dapat baby... Sabarnya abang.... Despite all that, kenapa la kadang2 i suka sangat buat perangai yang akan menyebabkan him upset? Susah ke nak jaga hati suami sendiri? Jawapannya ... Tak!!! Susah ke nak buat sesuatu yang menyenangkan hati suami sendiri? Jawapannya ... Tak!!! Alahai... sulitnya. Macam mana nak ubah sikap keras kepala ni ye, macam mana nak sentiasa positifkan diri... Its just me.
Friends who knew me back then, mesti ingat betapa gilanya i mengumpul majalah Mingguan Wanita, i have a lot of them, never miss a single keluaran. Plus, i lurve to read malay novels. And usually, jalan2 ceritanya kadang2 terbawa2 dalam kehidupan seharian. I quit Mingguan Wanita, thanks to my husband who calls it MAJALAH LUCAH, hehehe... tak percaya? Go to the nearest shop, belek front page of the mag, tgh apa tajuk2 yang dihighlightkan. ;p
Novel je yang susah nak berhenti. Husband said, all the dramas, novels yang i baca, sometime bothers me, terbawak2 pulak, kadang2 masa tgk drama bout husband main kayu tiga la, kawin lain la... tak pasal2 husband sendiri yang tak tahu apa2, yang not even watching, yang kena marah.
Cerita dah tak berkaitan from one para to another, i think i better stop now. Again, tq kepada kawan2 yang memberikan semangat. Jangan risau, we'll NEVER STOP trying ;p

Thursday, October 22, 2009

An update...

Salam semua...

I just realized that it has been quite sometime i tak post new news. Actually ada banyak sangat cerita, kadang2 sambil2 membasuh, masak etc, ada je ayat2 yang terlintas, but then, every time on je comp, dah lewat, mata pun dah layu. End up reading friend's blogs ;p

So, since my husband is not around, i have plenty of time to update my blog :)
This post sepatutnya been posted on 20th of Oct, tapi that night, 9.30 my husband dah ajak tidur, terbantut semuanya ;p ok, here it goes. and please, could you just imagine that its 20th Oct, can ye...

20th October 2009

At 7.30pm, while we were having our dinner, my husband just popped up a question.
My husband: Yang, do you remember what day is today?
Me : hmmmm... hari apa (inside, i was truing soooo hard to remember what kind of anniversary yang i terlupa, though i never did)
My husband: On this day, last year, i went to Japan.

So, there i was, thinking a lot of things... This date actually reminded me of few important things...
  • My husband went to Japan, for two months, and actually, before 20th, he was not around for three weeks since he was quarantine di Pusat Rakan Muda Puchong, luckily sepang-puchong took only about 30 mins, so for three weeks, i went to see him di puchong. Usually, i bring dinner, kami makan sama2. Even during that three weeks, it was soo tough, seeing him, when you know he will be away soon, really kills me. Dunno why, but emotionally, i was soo weak. Bila jumpa je, mesti rasa nak nangis. Really not me... I still remember, one particular evening, i brought kuehtiow goreng+telur mata kerbau (his fav), bila nak makan, abanf tiup kuehtiow tu, sebelum suap dalam mulut. I saw it few times, before i decided to ask him the purpose. "Kenapa abang tiup? kan dah sejuk, i bawak dari rumah". His answer made me crying so bad. He said " I macam teringat tengah makan di rumah". Hehe, sekarang bila ingat balik pun rasa sedih. I know that time, i have to be strong, stronger when he's not around, tapi emosi macam tak boleh dikawal, bercampu baur. I did realized, ada few times, mata my husband pun berkaca2, macam nak nangis pun ada. That time, i realized, dia tersepit antara kerjaya n leaving me alone, and that time also, i realized, abang memang sayangkan i...
  • 20th Oct 2008, all the unstable emotions, cenggeng and perasaan yang bercampur baur tu was explained by a simple UPT test, i was pregnant!!! I had a hunch that morning, before meeting my husband at the airport, i took one UPT yang memang dalam simpanan, check and the, double line :) lupa sekejap perasaan sedih. So i went to KLIA, saw him and moments before he boarded the plane, i handed him a box, containing the UPT result (basuh2 sket la...). He was puzzled at first, but after a simple explaination, he hugged me closely, he was soo happy. I know i am.
  • Mungkin Tuhan berikan berita gembira, untuk menutu satu kesedihan. Di saat i was soo depressed, Tuhan berikan satu keajaiban, to make me stronger.
  • Whenever we had the chance o talk, sms or skype, abang mesti tanya pasal baby. Antara ayat2 yang tak boleh lupa, "Tak sabar nak balik, nanti nak usap2 perut you", I rindu sangat dengan you, rindu kari you, tak sabar nak tengok baby". Being alone, handling few big responsibilities di saat2 yang kritikal begini, memang susah, ihad to travek sometime, ipof to sepang to sabak bernam, plus i gantikan kawan jaga exam SPM causes me to lose the baby. A month after my husband left, i had another miscarriage. Sebenarnya, nak beritahu my husband pun rasa berat je. I was risau, sebab takut dia terganggu. So i kept it a secret for few days before telling him. I know he is sad, not only because hilangnya bakal zuriatnya, also because he was not there for me, taking care of me. When i first had a miscarriage, abang la orang yang tolong jerangkan air panas untuk bertungku, and etc.

But anyway, mungkin bukan rezeki kami. Ada banyak sebab kenapa ini berlaku, dan sebagai hambaNya, kami hanya mampu berserah, mungkin belum tiba giliran kami.

Thats all for now, suddenly rasa sedih pulak, teringatkan cerita tahun lepas


Wednesday, October 7, 2009

A Tribute...

Salam semua...
I would like to pay a tribute to everyone who made our open house + house warming a big success...
  • My dearest husband who worked very hard days and night, so that our future will be as bright as sunshine. I hargai seluruh kasih sayang yang abang berikan. Thanks for the house, the kitchen cabinet, the patience you have, dealing with me ;p Thank you abang, i love you sooo much!!!!

  • My parents who came all the way from Ipoh with baked macaroni, home made moist choc cake, rendang pedas ayam, pulut panggang and bahulu kemboja. Luv you guys soooo much. I know both my parents are happy and proud i think sebab at early age (28 muda lagi ke...), we managed to come this far

  • My adik2. I was lucky to have them as my siblings. I was soo busy entertaining all the guests, the make sure that everything run smoothly. Thank you kak ngah, abang iq, yon, iqah, mimi and umi. Saaaaaaayyyyyaaaang korang

  • To all of my friends who came. Some came all the way from bangsar. Kak siti, kak has, nadia, shidah (sori, tak sempat sembang panjang2). Really appreciated kesudian kalian hadir

  • Guests yang datang dengan present. Hehehe, we got blender, rice cooker, alas meja, alas pinggan, hamper,lampu meja, lampu porch (i aimed this special lamp masa kat nilai, but then too expensive, tak jadi beli. but then rezeki...) just naming few

We were overwhelmed by the amount of guests showed up last Saturday, 3rd oct. first guest arrived at 1 pm (though it actually should started after asar), disambut oleh my husband yang hanya berseluar pendek + berpeluh2 sebab baru lepas menyusun meja and me yang begitu selekeh dengan track and t-shirt yang penuh dengan tepung ;p. Dah la staff my husband. And the last guest left at around 2 am.

Penat? meeeeeemmmmmang peeeeeeenaaaaat sangat. Quoted from my husband, if only you can cabut kaki and gantung, memang kami buat. Memang penat betul. Almost 500 guests showed up. My mum said, dah macam kenduri kawin. Penat memang penat but then, sangat menghargai kehadiran tetamu semua. Thank you soooooo much!!!!!!

Dalam kesibukan melayan tetamu, baru ku perasan takde sekeping gambar pun dalam simpananku... later, paw dari adik2, i'll